Unforgotten Romance

No, I haven’t forgotten that I’ve hurt you.

Just as I haven’t forgotten the time

You slid your hand onto mine in the movie theater once

And how that made me feel

Like electricity surging through me

Like warmth enveloping me

Like coming back home after years in the wilderness

No, I haven’t forgotten that I’ve disappointed you

Just as I haven’t forgotten

The time you looked at me with those eyes

As we hid away in your car in the desert

And how completely lost I was in them

I haven’t forgotten that

I would’ve had those feelings all those past years

And now I’m filled with regret

For letting go of it before I even caught it

For not seeing your love

And I haven’t forgotten how you saved me from my anger that night

You embraced me as the music filled our bodies

And your eyes shone brighter than the moon

I haven’t forgotten my failure to love you

My failure to be whole with you

But now

For fear of losing you again

For fear of wanting you more

Now

Now I want to forget