Fall, Fall, Fall

I looked down at her feet next to mine
The city below us
She clung on to me 
As if I were going to fall from atop the skyscraper
But I had already fallen
I had already fallen
Into her
Her arms
Her eyes
She is my net
But she still holds on

Unforgotten Romance

No, I haven’t forgotten that I’ve hurt you.

Just as I haven’t forgotten the time

You slid your hand onto mine in the movie theater once

And how that made me feel

Like electricity surging through me

Like warmth enveloping me

Like coming back home after years in the wilderness

No, I haven’t forgotten that I’ve disappointed you

Just as I haven’t forgotten

The time you looked at me with those eyes

As we hid away in your car in the desert

And how completely lost I was in them

I haven’t forgotten that

I would’ve had those feelings all those past years

And now I’m filled with regret

For letting go of it before I even caught it

For not seeing your love

And I haven’t forgotten how you saved me from my anger that night

You embraced me as the music filled our bodies

And your eyes shone brighter than the moon

I haven’t forgotten my failure to love you

My failure to be whole with you

But now

For fear of losing you again

For fear of wanting you more

Now

Now I want to forget

Hidden

I am hiding

I am hiding from your reality

I am hiding from hour reality because it is my nightmare

I am hiding from your reality because it is full of social interaction and slime and employment

Your reality is made out of things such as love and religion and pancakes

It is frightening

I am hiding because pancakes have 247 calories

And I add maple syrup to everything

Like my car's engine and my burger patty

I am hiding

I am hiding from your love

I am hiding from your love because it is dirty

And it stains me with emotion

I am hiding from your love because it involves physical interaction and fluids and damp sheets

I am hiding

I am hiding from you

Come hide with me

Rubble

I'm lying on the floor staring at the ceiling

And it's not even a ceiling anymore

This is not a call to arms

Rather a question

Disguised

As a misguided statement

I’m on my knees in my boxers

And the light burns

My book is sleeping in my bed

Its naked pages exposed

Words erotically ejaculating from my mind

My mind is unthinking

My mind is non-present

Another Version

Zombie Love

Here's a  little poem about love and zombies...


ZOMBIE LOVE
by Ali Al Saeed

The living keep dying
Shame they keep rising
From the graves we dug
With our own falling teeth

Why can't they stay dead
A little while longer
So we can make promises we can't keep

The good keep going bad
Shame they've turned sweet
Before they were bitter
Too late to taste the difference

The hearts stop beating
Long before the bodies start rotting
A kiss is all it takes
To become infected with rage

It may leave your body intact but
Love is the most grotesque form of cannibalism

It Wasn't What It Was

It wasn’t your infectious giggle that made me fall in love with you

I swear

It was that awful quiche we had to share at Coco’s

It wasn’t the fact that your skin glowed when you blushed

I swear it wasn’t

It was the smell of coffee we had together huddled in the back of Caribou

On a cold November night

I swear

It wasn’t the way you looked at me

Or how you sent shivers through me with your touch

Or how made my heart burst with every beat

No. It was the way you explained the French menu to me

Yours

Removal

I never used words to hurt you

The way you used your burning gaze on me

To leave a gaping hole in my soul

It was only after thirty-six days that I found

The last memory we made

Fractured by your fall from grace

Would have been easier for you to drag me

Through the thorny sheets of your bed

Than to remove yourself from me

Wild Fox

She innocently plays

With me

Unaware

Glances across

Unexchanged

13 Floors

Once the elevator doors closed

I was in the dark alone

Is that a whisper I hear?

I could’ve sworn it was your voice

Cutting the air that stands between us

I’ve got a blue lights in the palm of my hand

It casts a weak glow around me

But all I see is numbers

Between you and me

Thirteen floors sounds like a long way

To go down in the pitch darkness

One by one, there no light in sight

Maybe you should reach a hand out for me?

I promise I won’t bite

Blinding Beauty

I wake up and
I see the sun
Blinding bright

And I feel my heart
As heavy as a stone
Sinking in deep water

Cold and dark
Warm and hearty
Unsure of your love

And I feel my soul
As light as a feather
Swaying in the breeze

I wake up and
I see you
Blinding beautiful

Fools in Love

How can it be so scary? Being happy. Being in love. I'm lost in a sea of romance, a vast ocean so deep, so warm, so engulfing. A fire. A storm. A vortex. A paradox. It's everything wrapped in one. It's thrilling, exciting, frightening, comforting, like a drug of extacy.

How can she make me want to become a dream? How can she make me want to be lost in her eyes? In her kiss? Those lips so inviting, enticing, tantalizing, always beckoning me.

She's the first thought on my mind when I wake up, like a morning song stuck on repeat, like she's everything and all i know. When I lay myself in bed I could almost sense her warmth next to me. Skin as fragile as the wings of a butterfly.

How can we be so foolish as to fall in love again?

Our World (in a Kiss)

You make me strong
You make me weak
In the knees
You make me want
To sing louder when I'm not alone
You make me lose control
Over how my heart reacts
How my mind thinks
My hands and lips and fingertips
You make me unaware
Of the rest of the world
Because we've found our own
And it's in a car
In a moment
In a touch
In a smile
In a kiss

Blush

Go on
Blush for me
One more time
For your eyes
They sparkle when you do
And they look away
With longing

Go on
Hold my hand
And sit back
For the warmth of you
Travels through me
Like air
Through my lungs

Go on
Smile for me
Another smile
Electrify me,
Shock me
Into kissing you

Make me sing your name
In the depths of the night
Watch the stars
Sparkle in the sky
Like your eyes do
When you blush

Don't Read This Post

Be quiet
Shut up
Leave me alone
Go away
Fuck you
For being there
For always staring at me
For loving me

Be silent
Piss off
Leave me behind
And watch me fade
Fuck me
Stab me
Kill me
I wouldn't even feel a thing

Put me to sleep
Make me dream
Wake me up
Make love
To me
To them
To the world
Take my anger
Keep it in a box
Feed it
To the monsters

Be quiet.